I have so many quirky habits that it’s hard to sit down and list them. I was thinking about one of them earlier tonight. I noticed that if I don’t finish a cigarette–waste it, as I call it in my mind–I will “punish” myself by not letting myself have one later on when I really want one. I’m not sure why I do this. I swear that I have undiagnosed OCD. All of my things have to be arranged in a certain way, and if someone messes them up I notice immediately and it like, frazzles my brain. I also do everything the same way every time, and if I break that “routine” in the slightest bit I get really confused. A good example is taking a shower.

I set up my desk at work the same way every morning and put everything away when I leave, only to take it out again and arrange it in the morning. Same thing at home.

The list goes on and on. (;