Apparently making cards for the Letters of Love Greeting Card Chain Letter kits is aggravating where I got my first B12 injection this morning, so I figured I’d take a break and actually update my blog.

Not that I really want to. There’s a lot I could write about, yeah, but everything I’m actually feeling doesn’t make enough sense for me to try and translate it to the blogosphere. So I’ve been avoiding any blogging, any thinking, any feeling. And now I’ve gone too far, so on to some bullets!

• I went to see Pam, my super awesome PA, this morning for my first B12 injection and for a follow-up to my first visit. She told me that my B12 levels were low (they should be at about 400, but mine were somewhere in the 200 range), and that boosting my levels might help relieve some of my symptoms. She said that it might not work, but it would definitely make me feel less fatigued. I also told her about my current round of what seems like hemorrhoids and how it’s worse than ever. I’m not going to go into detail, because I like my readers and I don’t want to gross them out too badly. In short, she thinks I could have a bleeding stomach ulcer and gave me a prescription to try to get rid of the hemorrhoids, if that’s what the problem is. I also have a prescription B12 oral vitamin waiting for me at the pharmacy. Too bad I don’t have the money for it!
• Getting ready for school now that I found a way to pay for it is proving to be nearly as annoying as everything I went through trying to go to school. I have to go pick up my declaration of majors form from the Education department head’s mailbox and bring it to the English department head to sign. I also need to go buy my books, but I have to wait until August 1st before I can transfer my leftover financial aid to my stupid student “debit” card, AKA Hoot Loot. So basically, I’m not picking up that form until I can get my books because I refuse to drive forty-five minutes for just one little form. I’m also having an impossibly hard time finding an open ENG-112 class that fits with the rest of my schedule. I need that class before I can take any other English classes, so I’m pretty determined. I guess I’ve got until August 1st. If I don’t find an ENG-112, I guess I’ll just take Italian or something. Meh.
• I’ve been in a contrary mood: On the one hand, I just want to be a total hermit and live inside of my head. On the other hand, I get too lonely too quickly. I’ve also got mood swings like whoa. And I keep thinking of the million and one things I need or want to do, but have no motivation whatsoever. I thought it might be because my to-do list is so mother-loving long, but I think it’s more than that since I tried breaking it all down. I wish I knew what was wrong with me.
• I want to do something tonight, because I know I’ll go crazy sitting in my house, but I don’t want to deal with anyone. I just don’t know.

I’ll try to post something actually interesting and less — insert word here, because “depressing” or “bipolar” just doesn’t seem to fit — later.