Elizabeth Barone

New Adult Romance & Suspense

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Cancer Sucks, but Good Writing Doesn’t

11880573_919774224745602_2475457999899911259_n“My husband. He’s not breathing.”

Twenty-four hours after catching up on Chasing Life, and I’m still reeling. I don’t even know where to begin. How much I relate to this show. How much it hurt to watch April lose Leo. I don’t think any show has ever made me cry so hard. It struck all of my nerves.

That’s what good writing is all about.

I can’t deny that I saw it coming. Back when April first found out her cancer was back, I thought Wouldn’t it be crazy if Leo ends up dying, since we’re all so worried about April? Then I pushed the thought away, because no one wanted that. Still, it stayed with me because, as a writer, that’s exactly what I would do.

My heart is so broken.

I have to give this show major props. The writers don’t play it safe. Nothing is ever predictable. What was shocking to me was, I really hoped I was wrong because each episode strives to end in an uplifting way. “As Long As We Both Shall Live” did not.

Watching April wake up to find Leo gone hurt because it hit so close to home. After losing a close friend in a similar fashion, my biggest fear has been losing my own husband in that way. Nothing in life is certain. Death surrounds us, waiting to swoop in. No one is safe. That’s why it’s so important to live life to the fullest. Right before Leo passes, he and April have a beautiful night—one that neither of them knew was their last together. That’s what made this episode so gut wrenching yet so powerful.

You really just never know.

I love Chasing Life and have no plans to stop watching. I’m curious to see how April will make it through this tragedy, all while trying to recover from her second bout of cancer. I want to know why Uncle George shredded the manuscript. I want to see the blossoming relationship between Brenna and Finn continue to grow. And I want to see April finish her book.

If this show has taught me anything, it’s to love harder, to embrace life. Because we don’t always get to know the answers, and everything really can change in an instant.

Rest in peace, Leo. Thank you for being such a powerful character.

Five Years

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Five years ago today, I lost my grandfather. Popi was one of the most important people in my life. He helped raise my sister and me. They say it takes a village to raise a child. We had my parents and my grandparents.

When Popi was diagnosed with cancer, I didn’t want to believe that it would eventually take him from us. I was in denial the entire time, until he was gone. Only then did I snap out of it. Heartbroken and raw, I struggled to accept the truth.

My grandfather wasn’t truly gone, though. He appeared in my dreams. A monarch butterfly—his favorite—kept visiting my family. His spirit, as my Noni kept telling me, lived on.

I can’t pretend to know what happens in the afterlife, but I do know one thing for sure. Real love is forever. It doesn’t die. Though my grandfather could be rough around the edges, he fiercely loved his family. The tender moments when he would hug me and tell me he loved me will stay with me forever. Sure, he was stubborn about some things, but he adored us all—especially his grandchildren.

I know that, if he were with us now, he would be so proud of all of us.

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