I Survived My Birthday

Well, after almost three days of being off the grid, we got power back a few hours ago. I honestly feel kind of guilty, since we were managing just fine, and on the news tonight they showed all of the damage and further safety issues throughout the state. We could have had it so much worse, and yet now we have power and it’s almost like nothing happened here, while much of the state is at risk for flooding, is still off the grid, and suffered a lot of property damage.

Still, I also feel like we’re very lucky, and I’m very grateful. We spent the last few days cooking on the gas stove in our apartment. We lost a lot of food, but managed to save some of it, too. Last night, Mike, Lauren, and I walked around the corner to Mary’s house and played games by candlelight with Sandy, Mary, and Taylore. We had a lot of fun.

Saturday night, before Irene hit, we had everything ready; Mom and Dad had stocked up on water, batteries, and non-perishable food, I got Squirt’s cat carrier ready, I packed a bag of clothes just in case we had to evacuate, and we all tried to sleep without much luck. By the time Irene hit, though, it was only a tropical storm — which still does a lot of damage, but less than a hurricane, so Connecticut was fairly lucky, relatively speaking. I’m glad we didn’t have to evacuate or go into the cellar, because Biz Noni — my great-grandmother — would have had to go outside in it, and the thought of that really bothered me.

We also faced the possibility of looting and home invasions. Like Dad said, people get desperate and you just never know, so he loaded up the shotgun and we all, I think, slept with one eye open. It was a little unnerving, in the middle of a completely pitch black neighborhood that isn’t all that safe to begin with. Still, we didn’t have any major problems, and I’m more grateful than I could ever possibly express.

Unfortunately, we’re kind of back to reality, and my reality right now is my car, affectionately known as Ellie. It shit the bed a couple of days before the storm; poor Mike was driving by himself, and it literally died in the middle of the road. Right now it’s up in the BJ’s parking lot, and we have no idea what’s wrong with it. For the last few weeks, it’s been smelling like burning rubber after driving it for a while, but there wasn’t any smoking or anything wrong that I could see, so we don’t even know yet if it’s the same problem. Dad’s going to look at it tomorrow, now that we’re out of the “dark” and my sister Lauren is moved back into her dorm.

So yeah, it’s been an exciting week. I can definitely say I’ve never had this exciting of a birthday. Luckily, we had cake on Saturday, so at least I got my ice cream cake before we lost power Sunday, on my actual birthday. I think that would have added insult to injury, as shallow as that might sound. My mom and dad got me the Lungs album by Florence + the Machine, and I can’t stop listening to it. It’s really, really good. I’m pretty obsessed with it, and can already tell it’s going to be one of the CDs I will have owned for years and have come close to wearing out.

Today, the 31st, is Mike’s and my five-year anniversary. He had some super secret, big plans for my birthday and our anniversary, but because of the car it’s going to be a while. We’re still going out to dinner I think, because he said Mom and Dad told him he could borrow Mom’s car to take me out to dinner. As crazy as this might sound, I think a quiet night out will be more than enough of a gift in my eyes, after the week we all had.

If you’re on the East Coast, how are you faring after Miss Irene came to visit? I hope you’re safe.

I'm Getting a Hurricane for My Birthday

Update, 12:40am, 08/30: For those of you who don’t have Twitter and are wondering, my family and I are all safe. We’re going on forty-eight hours without power, but we’re managing just fine. I’ll post a full update as soon as we get power (typing on my phone is cumbersome at best, painful on my hands at worst). :)

Hurricane Irene is coming to visit me.

Hurricane Irene is coming to visit me.

Hurricane Irene is forecast to hit Connecticut — where I live — at about 5pm EST on Sunday night… and Sunday happens to be my birthday. Even the spaghetti forecast — an estimation of all of the possible paths Irene could take — shows that no matter which way it goes, Irene is coming to visit me.

At first, I wasn’t taking it seriously because, come on, CT never gets anything more than a little rain when there’s a hurricane. Governor Asshole — I mean, Malloy — declared a state of emergency, though, and my sister’s school is advising that after moving in on Saturday, students go directly home and return Monday for class.

I realize this hurricane could be nasty — they’re saying it could hit us at Category 1 — but damn, why does it have to be on my birthday? I think I have every right to whine. ;)

If you’re in Irene’s path on her way to visit me, make sure you’re prepared. CT put together a little minisite with tips and announcements related to the hurricane, but I also found a few more links I thought I’d share.

Fun times.

My first priority this weekend is my cat; if we have to evacuate, she is the first “thing” I’m grabbing. I’m also packing a little bag, just in case, and we’re getting water and some other supplies together. We’ll most likely be hanging out downstairs on the first floor with Noni and Biz Noni on Sunday, since our roof, um, leaks, and we’re on the third floor.

I’ll make sure to keep updating on Twitter in case we do get hit, that way you guys know I’m alive and stuff, but I’m not too too worried. I just feel like we’re better off being safe rather than sorry. If you’re in Irene’s path, too, please stay safe. Let’s hook up on Twitter so that we can keep each other updated, okay? I’m @elizabethbarone.

Also, if anyone in the Naugatuck Valley area knows of pet friendly emergency shelters — like the Red Cross or something — can you let me know? We have two cats and they’re very important to us.

Update, 7:44pm, 08/25: NYT put together a tracker to show Irene’s path, and via reliable news sources on Twitter, I’ve learned that New Jersey is asking all Jersey Shore residents to voluntarily leave the area for the time being, NYC is shutting down all public transportation from Saturday afternoon and on, and Connecticut is closing all state parks and campgrounds. Stay safe, guys. This is starting to worry me a little.

Update, 11:09pm, 08/25: Check out this satellite image showing the size of Irene; it’s 1/3 the size of the East Coast! #holyshit

Update, 12:55pm, 08/26: Still getting a hurricane for my birthday, wahoo! As of 11:45 this morning, the National Hurricane Center said that we’ll be getting hit with a Category I on Sunday morning. So basically, I get to wake up to this shit.

Here’s what we’re doing to prepare:

  • Put some water into containers (because why buy it when it comes just fine out of your faucet right now)
  • Reinforce the shaky windows in the house with plexiglass
  • Charge up our cell phones Saturday night
  • Get ready to camp out in our living room; if we lose power, we’ll be cooking out (after the storm, obviously)

No biggy. What are you doing to prepare?

Update, 1:29am, 08/28: As of 1:15am, we’re still looking at “welcoming” Irene into Connecticut sometime tomorrow morning, with the edges of the storm hitting us at about two this morning. Everyone else in my house is asleep. Ironically, yesterday I was telling my friend to not panic and that we’d all be fine, but now I’m getting nervous. Our roof started leaking a few hours ago, and we don’t even have wind or really heavy rain yet. Please keep your fingers that the roof holds out!

Other than that, I’m enjoying Lungs, the Florence + the Machine album that Mom and Dad got me for my birthday. And, even though I was born at 5:18am today, I’m celebrating my twenty-third birthday by listening to it. Mom and I had vodka and cranberry drinks earlier, and there’s plenty more for later today when we lose power (since we’re anticipating losing it).

I’ve been doing my best to check on everyone on Twitter, and will continue to update from my phone on both Twitter and here, if need be. Be safe, everyone! We’ll get through this. ♥

I'm getting the hell out of here!

Squirt is clearly only tolerating my annoying urge to take pictures together.

Squirt is clearly only tolerating my annoying urge to take pictures together.

Tomorrow I’m getting out of the city and into the country and fresh air for three beautiful days. I’m ecstatic. I’m still unemployed, and all of the stress surrounding the whole situation has been making me yearn to just get out. As long as Noni still feels up to it after her chemo today, we’re leaving for the lake tomorrow morning, joining up with Aunt Wendy, going to Aunt Wendy’s graduation tomorrow night, and then coming home sometime Friday. I get three days all alone with my grandmother and aunt — something that will probably never happen again.

I haven’t yet decided whether I’m bringing my laptop to do some writing, but I’m bringing two of the books on my summer reading list. I really want to leave my laptop behind, but I haven’t done any writing in a few days, so I might bring it and my Sade On the Wall first draft and notes. I don’t know. There’s something appealing about getting away from my laptop for three days… and there’s also something appealing about using those three days to get started on that editing I’ve been meaning to do (and procrastinating).

So yeah, as long as Noni still feels up to it in the morning, we’re heading off! Her chemo went well today, though. They started her on a different chemo, since she was reacting badly to the other one. The first time she had her treatment, she fainted and got pretty banged up. She also had a lot of joint pain. The second time, she had joint pain again, I think, so her oncologist decided to try a different medication. This one was a shot instead of an IV drip like the other one, and she did well on it today. All of her blood work came back perfect, too, and she and the oncologist even think the tumor might be shrinking.

I do feel kind of bad that I’m leaving Mike for three days, because not only is he getting a root canal on Thursday, but he has never spent that much time with my family without me around. I hope it won’t be too awkward for him. I mean, I know he’s known them all for about five years and has been living here for almost a year, but I’m sure it’ll be a little different, at least. It would be for me. Then again, the only thing he’s said about the whole thing is that he wishes I was going to be around after he gets the root canal, for comfort purposes. He’ll be fine, of course, but I wouldn’t be me if a small part of me didn’t worry a little.

She didn't think this was funny.

She didn't think this was funny.

Aside from going away and being unable to find a job even though I’ve applied to several places, I started taking 25mg of Tramadol every day on 06/02 — almost two weeks ago — and since then, my pain has decreased to only a small twinge here or there. Most days, I’ve had no pain at all. It’s hard to tell whether this is the medication, or just a period of remission. Either way, I’m enjoying it. If, by the time I see my rheumatologist again in July, I’m still not having that much pain, I’m going to just assume it’s the medication. And then I’ll have to celebrate, because holy shit! This low dose of Tramadol doesn’t make me feel like I just smoked a bunch of pot! Of course, it’s not treating that annoying fatigue that hits me like an eighteen wheeler sometimes, but I can deal with that if I’m not also in pain.

She hates me.

She hates me.

I’ve also been doing a lot of stuff for Freaking Bookworm, partially to keep busy but mostly because I love it. I created a book review bloggers directory inspired by the book review vloggers directory that my book blogging buddy Liz created. I also wrote an article on why it’s a good thing that teens read YA, which got quite a few tweets and Facebook shares. (When I say “quite a few,” I mean it’s quite a few for my little book review blog. :D ) I also read and reviewed Witch Doctor #0 and Beat, and created a summer reading list. And, even though I am not ready to share this over on Freaking Bookworm, I landed my first interview with an author, and got accepted to write book reviews for Blog Critics, the sister site to Technorati (which is like Google to the blogosphere). I have a lot more reviews coming, but this is what I’ve been working on lately. So, even though I lost my Amazon store, things are still going really well, and I’m having a lot of fun with this. It would be the best job in the world if I could find a way to make a living off of it. I will, someday.

"Oh stupid human, are you done yet?"

"Oh stupid human, are you done yet?"

In unrelated news, I’m thinking about giving up personal blogging and focusing completely on book blogging. (I also have plans for another focused blog, as soon as I get back on my feet and can afford to spend the usually inexpensive $8.95 for a domain name. In the meantime, I’m setting up a WordPress.com blog to make sure I’m committed to the topic.) As much as I enjoy blogging, I just don’t see the point in publicly sharing my personal life and problems anymore. It used to be a way for me to vent, but I’m just starting to think of it as immature; I look back on many of my old posts and think, Why did I need to share that? I don’t see anything wrong with personal blogging in general, but I think I’m growing out of it. Don’t worry, though — you’ll never see me stop blogging! (Unless I die. But we’re not going to think about that. I like being alive.)

What’s new with you? I just caught up on blogs, but I still wanna know. Leave me a comment and catch me up!

Should brutal crimes be treated with brutal punishment? I think so.

On my way to work this morning, I stopped at City Gas, a gas station that’s been on my street for years. Though I used to buy gas and cigarettes there all of the time, I still don’t know the owner’s name. He’s always looked out for me, though, which is why I feel safe going there even after dark.

This morning, he was angry. He asked me if I’d read the newspaper this morning, and when I said no, he picked up a copy and pointed angrily at the front page, where the lead story was about a sixteen-year-old girl, Chloe Ottman, who had been raped and murdered this weekend*.

“Oh, yeah,” I said. “I don’t understand. At all.”

“He rape her! Okay, fine, he rape her, but why he have to kill her?! He should be hung,” he said in his thick Middle Eastern accent. “At Holy Land! On God’s land, he kill her. Why he have to kill her?!”

I’ve never seen him angry, but I agreed, completely. As half of me insisted I needed to get going, that I was already late for work, the other half of me wanted to mourn with him.

“It say she good student. Now her life over, he go to jail, get food, bed, TV… I pay taxes, you pay taxes, we pay for this man to live good life, and her life over. Why?! He should be hung! Women have soft heart. Women don’t deserve this,” my friend said.

“I know,” I said, feeling tears prick at my eyes. “I don’t understand. It’s mindblowing.”

And it is. What’s even more surreal is, I have connections to both her family and her boyfriend. My sister, Lauren, went to school with her boyfriend, Jeremy. Her mother is Mike’s stepfather’s brother’s girlfriend. It’s also surreal because this happened right in my backyard. Once again, my community is mourning for one of their own.

Like my gas station friend said, there are plenty of prostitutes this guy could have gone to, if he wanted sex. And since he obviously didn’t choose to go that route, why did he have to murder this girl after raping her? Yes, rape is bad enough, and it’s enough to destroy a life. But she could have had a chance to keep on living. Her family would still have her, and her friends would still have her.

And speaking of friends, what kills me is, this guy was supposed to be her friend! According to the article, they had been friends for two years. Now, in my opinion, a nineteen-year-old guy has no business hanging around with a sixteen-year-old after dark, up at Holy Land, but she trusted him! I cannot imagine thinking that I was going for a walk with a friend, only to be betrayed like that.

My heart is heavy with grief for her and her family, and I didn’t even know her. But the brutality of her death and how young she was is what makes me grieve. She should have been given a fair chance at life.

And this motherfucker, this Francisco Cruz, should be hung — by his balls. Why do we not use the death penalty here in Connecticut? Why do scumbags like Francisco Cruz, Steven J. Hayes, and Joshua Komisarjevsky get to continue living, when their victims cannot, and their victims’ families must try to go on, knowing that their loved ones suffered so much, and yet their murderers suffer so little? Cruz admitted to raping and murdering Chloe. Fuck the trial. Hang him, in such a way that he knows even half of the suffering that Chloe knew.

Different people have different opinions about the death penalty, but if the crime fits, the punishment should be fitting, too! I am not religious, but I am a believer in an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth. If we had more brutal punishments, I cannot imagine even half of the crime we have right now. Back in the days when everyone carried a gun and the punishment for theft, murder, or cheating was to be shot or hung, there was less crime. You can argue that there was a smaller population, but people actually feared the law — AKA the hangman’s shaft. I don’t believe that we should use the death penalty for every crime, but brutal crimes like rape, murder, and child molestation should be treated as the brutal crimes they are.

I didn’t mean for this post to be so angry. Initially, it was just to mourn Chloe’s death. I hope that she is at peace now. Chloe, her family, and her friends and boyfriend Jeremy are in my thoughts. I am so, so sorry for your loss.


*The story I linked to is from NBC, as opposed to Rep-Am (the paper he pointed to), because Rep-Am locks their stories after seven days and as far as I know, NBC doesn’t.

All work and no play gets me a BlackBerry and no life

My life is going at the speed of a frog in a blender. It’s almost too much!

I started working two jobs a couple of weeks ago. I am not used to working all day, every day. It’s exhausting! It’s totally worth it at the end of the week, though. I’m actually catching up on things I’ve been trying to save for. Maybe I’ll even be driving the Sunfire soon, rather than my death trap Mazda. I even got the BlackBerry I’ve been dying to have (thank you to Sarcastica for being so patient and helping me get on BB Messenger)!

A couple of days ago, I also partnered my web design freelancing business with my aunt’s web design and print media business, OSC. We will be collaborating on social media websites. So basically, if one of us has a client that needs a website and social media, we will work on it together. I will be working on the social media end of it, be it setting up accounts on social networking sites (MySpace, Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, etc) or building a site in WordPress. We will be offering training and hopefully will be doing seminars. We have an expo in about a month that we need to prepare for, and we’ve been doing a lot of networking. Needless to say, I’ve been working pretty much non-stop and I could use a nice, long nap.

Somehow, through all of this craziness, I’ve managed to stay smoke-free. I don’t know how the hell I’m doing it.

Of course I have another sinus infection. I have to call my physician in the morning and get some drugs! I thought that by quitting smoking, I wouldn’t get as many sinus infections each year. I guess I thought wrong. I don’t want to go back to smoking, though. I don’t even care that I quit, and I’m glad for all of the extra cash (especially now that Connecticut is hiking up the taxes on tobacco).

The only real problem with all of this working is that I’m starting to feel like I don’t ever do anything fun. I realized the other day that I’ve been much been working non-stop for the last year or so, and that sucks. It’s starting to drain me. I spent most of the day yesterday trying to stop the

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My only consolation is that today is Wednesday, Friday is pay day, sometime this weekend I am going to get my hair cut, and Julien-K finally released their debut album. Oh, and did I mention that Mike found me the ultra-rare translucent Dr. Manhattan figure? Cool beans.