So here we go

I decided to drop out of SCSU.

I’ve been agonizing over it these last couple of days (mainly last night and early into this morning), but I finally made a decision this afternoon. I know it sounds crazy, but hear me out.

I already know what I want to do with my life. I want to run my own web design business, and I want to write fiction. I also want to continue running my non-profit, and I want to start up something I’ve been sitting on for a while. (HA, I bet you thought I was gonna give it away! :P ) I have an AA in Digital Arts Technology: Multimedia/Web Authoring, and am currently working in my field, so I already have a foot in the door. I also have a high school diploma for Culinary Arts, so I can always fall back on that. While studying literature and writing in a school setting may be beneficial, I don’t think it’s really going to launch my career. Bottom line is, I need to pursue my dreams. I need to put all of my time into the things I love and the things I want to do. Taking classes is not going to help me finish my novel or get my business really going. I know that a BA in English couldn’t hurt, but I feel that this is not the path for me. I feel that I need to “get in the trenches” (as Gary V. would say) and get going.

I already talked to my mom about this, and she supports me. I also talked to Mike about it all — before I even made a decision — and I know that he supports me no matter what I choose. I know that some are going to look down on me and think I am making a mistake, but guess what: it’s my mistake to make. I want to get out there and experience life. I am tired of living in the box. I want to do things for myself and see how far I can go. I’m not knocking education in any way; I think that education is very important. However, there is only so much education you can get before you have to get out and live. I think I’ve been clinging to school as a safety net, and it’s time to let go of the safety nets and fall (or fly).

Anyway.

Mike and I went to see Taken last night. It was an excellent film. I was on the edge of my seat and cheered Liam Neeson’s character on the entire time. I thought it did a great job exposing human trafficking and entertaining at the same time. Some people in the theater — mainly one girl — didn’t get it at all. I thought the ending fit, but I won’t spoil it for anyone. Go see it if you haven’t already!

Ice cream makes everything better

I feel like crap today. My throat hurts and I just feel weird. The weirdness I can probably blame on the Ultram I took at about one this morning. My right arm was in agonizing pain so I popped one and played Sonic and Super Mario Bros on the Wii until about 2:30. Then I popped in Fantasia and my stoned ass fell asleep while watching that. It’s kind of weird that I’d still be feeling off hours and hours later. Hmn.

My throat probably hurts because I smoked three half cigarettes yesterday (which, okay, amounts to like one and a half, whatever) and hung out with Mike earlier in the afternoon and then Sandy and Chris last night. Both of them are smokers, so being around all that smoke is probably why my throat hurts.

Then again, I’m probably just lying to myself because I don’t want to think — even for a second — that I might be sick again. Nononono.

I watched Cube last night with Sandy and Chris. It was really interesting. A handful of complete strangers with different personalities and backgrounds were stuck inside of a giant cube that reminded me of a Rubik’s cube. They had to figure out how to get out of there and how to avoid the trapped rooms. I think this movie was what inspired the Saw guys.

After that we tried to get the Sega Genesis working so we could play Sonic but it finally bit the dust, I think. We ended up watching Strangeland and that’s when I decided to go home because I was in so much pain. I’ve never seen Strangeland and couldn’t pay much attention to it. I went home at about 12:30. How lame. It really sucks that I can’t take my medication while I’m out. I lose out on so much because of whatever the hell it is that’s wrong with me.

Oh well. Mike gets out of work at 2 and we’re probably gonna go get sundaes. :D

Because I'm somewhere in between

This morning I babysat Katarina for my Aunt Rikki so that she could get some work done. Poor little Kat is sick with a viral infection in her throat and an ear infection, so she wasn’t her usual happy self. Uncle Reno pumped me full of coffee, even though I had already bought a cup at Dunkin Donuts.

I got home early this afternoon and since then I’ve been working on the Letters of Love site. My goal is to have it finished by tonight, but it’s hard to work right now. I have a lot on my mind. It also doesn’t help that the particular person whom is causing all of this grief refuses to answer their phone and talk to me.

This is a huge waste of a post, but I know if I keep going I’ll say things I may regret later on.

Anyway, Mike and I watched Midnight Meat Train last night on FearNET and it was pretty good. I just wish Clive Barker could have given us some sort of explanation for the odd things the antagonist pulled off of his skin every night. It was very B-movie and very Clive Barker.

Edit: I finally got in touch with the person in question. Hopefully I will be able to sit down and talk to them soon.

Twilight movie: Love at first sight or Hollywood disaster?

I’m not sure if I’m going to go see the Twilight movie. None of the actors look like the characters in the books; the vampires’ actors are not pale enough, Jacob’s actor doesn’t look remotely Native American, and so on. I’m also terrified that they are going to ruin the book.

What do you think?