Who's mental?

I always have to do several very different things. I can’t just concentrate on one thing. And I always jump back and forth between all of my various projects. This blog is project one. The two novels I’ve been writing are two and three. Freaking Bookworm is four, I Rocked the 90′s is five, Letters of Love is six, Scars Can Speak is seven, and I’m sure there are more I’m not thinking of. I need to learn how to focus, because if I can’t put enough effort into each of these, none of them will do that well. I feel like a kid with ADHD. Hell, maybe I have ADHD. Then again, I also think I’m (more than?) slightly compulsive, neurotic, and bipolar. I think these are things I should mention to my psychiatrist.

A directory for people struggling with depression

I have a favor to ask you all.

Some of you might know that I run a pen pal support group, Letters of Love, for people with depression, self-injury, etc. Some of you might know that I suffer from depression, that I used to self-harm, that I have on several occasions wanted to take my life. In the almost two years that I’ve been running Letters of Love (LOL), it has grown very large, helping many people.

I’d like to take it a step further.

I’ve long been wondering why there isn’t a directory of organizations who help people with mental illness, as well as a directory of bloggers who struggle with mental illness. I mean, we spend an awful lot of time feeling alone. I’ve been using LOL to try to connect us all, but I really think I need to do more. I’ve been wanting to put this directory together, but wasn’t sure how to tackle the job.

I’ve finally decided to do it, but I need your help. If there is an organization, such as LOL, Holding of Wrist, or To Write Love On Her Arms, that you know of that helps people with depression, or a blogger you know of who openly writes about his or her experiences, please comment with a link to their website. (I will, of course, ask any bloggers for permission before linking to them in this directory.) If you could also write a short description of who they are, what they do, and why you recommend them, that would be great.

Please pass this link along to anyone you think might want to help or who might benefit from the directory when it’s complete.

Thank you.


PS: If you’d like to share a link but don’t want to comment publicly with it, just shoot an email to me at elizawhat@gmail.com.

Busy like a busy bee

I’m about to be very busy.

Some time ago, I partnered my little (barely started) startup web design company with my aunt’s. I jumped on board as a web designer AND social media consultant since — I say this quite modestly — I am pretty nasty at community building on social networking sites, and in general. More than one comment on this blog certified me for the position. (I’m totally kidding here.)

ANYWAY.

At the moment, we have two HUGE clients who need websites done by January. I’m going to be building a WordPress site (yay) and my aunt is doing a static HTML/CSS site. After the latter is done, I’m going to be doing a huge three month long social media push for the same client.

Goodbye, money worries. Hello, code tinkering. Sigh. I’ll wipe the drool from my face when I’m done thinking about all of the nerdy goodness of this career.

But where, my inner editor asks, does THE NOVEL fit into all of this?

I promised her that it would indeed still get finished. I will indeed still get to 50,000 words for NaNoWriMo (I’m currently at 45k). I’ll even start editing it still. But the going is going to be a little slower now; you try explaining to a client that their website isn’t finished yet because your characters need you. I dare you.

I don’t often write about stuff like this here, but sometimes I just can’t contain myself and have to share. Not that, you know, the design of this blog is any proof to the fact that I am, indeed, a good web/WordPress designer. (I solemnly swearwill try to make it MINE when my big projects are over at the end of January!) Another personal project I’ve been working on, Freaking Bookworm, will have to wait, too. (It’s about halfway done. Oops.) I’d like to think that I’ll still work on it a little at a time, but we’ll see.

I am a woman of many distractions

I enjoy taking risks. I love new things. Yeah, I’m usually a little anxious about it and sometimes a little nervous, but I love the thrill and excitement, the feeling of complete and total unknown that makes my belly do little flip flops.

I’ve been trying to be more independent, to do things for myself that my parents used to take care of. I’ve been working on big projects and spending more time than is probably healthy on the computer putting those dreams to reality.

I’ve been sitting on an idea for a while now, and I’m almost ready to get started. It’s a big risk. Just starting it is going to cost me a lot more money than I’d like to spend right now, especially with a particular Sunfire that needs a new blower motor and has something wrong with the shifter. It’s going to take a while for me to launch it. It’s going to take a lot of work, and it’s going to add a lot to my current daily workload. Still, it’s something that I’m passionate about and something that I think could be beneficial to others. I live for this sort of thing. I love working on more than one thing at once. It’s how I thrive.

I’m excited and anxious to get started, but also a little nervous. It’s the feeling that makes my life so vibrant and full of wonder.

So I ask you, what moves you? What makes you truly happy?

Priorities

I need to follow Miss Britt’s lead and prioritize. (If you want to skip my boring to-do list, help me figure out why we beat ourselves up!)

I have a long list of projects. Every time I turn around, another one pops up and insists on being completed as well. (For example, as I plan this year’s NaNoWriMo novel an old WIP pops up and begs to be completed.) I have priorities and I have things that I think are priorities. The question is, which are which? Continue reading