I hate playing things by ear. I also hate waiting. So basically, I’m impatient and obsessive, and over analyze things until I’m worryworryworrying like a Sim*.

Sometimes I wish things were easier, like in the Sims.

I’ve been looking for a job. I’ve put in applications to about a dozen places and so far? Nothing. I’ve even called said places to check on my application, and they’re either not hiring now, will be hiring “soon,” or told me that they don’t look at their online applications, so I’ll have to fill out another one, print it out, and bring it in. (Why have applications on your website if you’re not even looking at them?!) A couple of places said, “We’ll call you,” but my phone has yet to ring.

I also decided to go back to school. I reactivated my application, applied for FAFSA, and have been obsessively checking the mail every day for that, “Congratulations! You’ve been accepted!” letter. I know I’ll be hearing from them soon, because

1. I’m a transfer student, and transfer students are almost automatically accepted;
2. it’s a reactivation of my application from last fall, so it’s really just rematriculation;
3. when I withdrew last fall, I left in good standing

It’s just the waiting that is killing me.

I even called them this morning to ask about a work study. It would be perfect, because I would be working and going to school on campus, so it would cut down on the running around and spending so much money on gas going from Waterbury to New Haven. (It’s about a twenty-five minute drive into New Haven, but once you get into the city and hit all of that traffic, it’s about another twenty minutes until you actually crawl get to campus.) Unfortunately, they don’t have any work study money left — since it’s basically a government grant — but she told me to just come into the office during the first couple weeks of the semester because usually people decline the work studies they’ve been awarded, so there should be some available by then. I also asked how it worked, if I could budget the income from it (for gas, food, tuition, etc), and she said yes, that it’s just like a regular job.

The semester doesn’t start until the last week of August, though, so I would have to wait another two months. Of course, it’s not like anyone has even called me for an interview yet, so I might just be waiting that long, anyway.

I swear, I am a crazy person. Or at least, I’m heading there.

Clearly I’m not ready to part ways with my security blanket this blog. I swear that wasn’t some crazy cyber publicity stunt. I really was going to delete this site come the 8th and take a break for a while. I had my mind completely made up… and then I kept wanting to log in and write about different things. I guess this blog is just a part of who I am for now. I apologize for being all impulsive and crazy and stuff.

Then again, I guess that’s just who I am. Sigh.

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*Can you tell I’ve been playing Sims 2 almost nonstop lately? Speaking of which, that screenshot above is of my Rachel, Jay, and John. (John’s hair is crazy because he went to my Astrid’s salon and although I usually get to do the makeovers myself, sometimes she does it on her own and it comes out… horrible.) John is Rachel’s father, and Rachel and Jay had just tied the knot (in the bathroom, because I thought “Propose Marriage” meant I was going to get to throw a party first). I started a Sims blog but it’s not ready yet. I have hilarious stories to share with my fellow Sims junkies.