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I want you and I’m hating it

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I wasn’t entirely sure if I liked Breaking Dawn at first, but I’m really into it. I won’t give anything away but if you’ve been afraid to read the last one, don’t be. Dive in. It’s great. (I’ll give a better review when I’m finished with it.)

Things are looking up on several sides. For one, my aunt and mentor called me tonight with a job. I love working for my aunt. She seems to think that she learns a lot from me, but let me tell you — I’ve learned a lot from her. Anyway, she has a client who needs a new site built, but in the meantime the client needs the old site updated. While my aunt builds her new site, I’m going to update the old one. It will just be simple data entry, with a little hard coding — a lot of which I do at my day job — but I’m not complaining. I could really use the extra money. Mike and I really want to shoot for the October 12th game in Indianapolis.

I also dyed Lauren’s hair tonight — a nice, dark chocolate brown. Then I blow dried it for her and marveled at the wonders of DNA. I mean, she got Mom’s pin-straight, easy to manage hair. I got Dad’s thick, curly, not so easy to manage hair. I’m hoping that if I ever have kids, Mom’s hair DNA will skip a generation and hit them. That would be awesome, but I don’t think that’s possible. In any case, hopefully they’ll get their father’s hair. I’ll have to make sure I marry a guy with easier hair than mine. Mike qualifies, so far. Heh.

I feel like an asshole for failing quitting smoking, but I guess I really just wasn’t ready. They say that the number one factor in success is that you have to be ready. I guess I got caught up in a couple of conversations I’d had — with Sandy and Tracy, Mike’s mom — and then a few blog entries I’d read. I tried though, and that’s all that matters. Anyway, I’m going to have to cut back on coffee this week, because now that I bought another pack of cigarettes I don’t have enough money for coffee every morning. I am such a loser. I’m actually punishing myself for not quitting smoking. I do weird stuff like that all the time. I think it really might be OCD.

I still plan on using the two composition notebooks I bought. I’ll probably bring them to work with me once I finish Breaking Dawn. I want to get started on my short stories series about Tent City before I start my creative writing class. Either way, I’ll be bringing them with me to class.

Anyway, Lauren is playing Indigo Prophecy — a game Mike gave her — and I’m really getting into it. I want to thank everyone for their support this weekend, especially Sarah! I promise I’ll get back to the “I am..” and “Ten Things I Love About..” blogs this week.

I think I hate myself right now

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I feel twitchy and anxious inside, like every fiber of my being is squirming. Heh. I also feel too tired to do much of anything. I’ve been dragging myself through Breaking Dawn — which is really good, by the way — but I’m exhausted.

Sandy quit this morning and she feels like crap, too. At least I know I’m not alone.

All I can think of is, how in the world am I going to get through work tomorrow?

I woke the dawn, saw horses growing out the lawn

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Blegh. I feel tired and lazy. I keep thinking about having a cigarette, even though a) I know that I don’t have any, b) I know that I don’t have money to buy any and c) I know I’ve quit. I think it’s more out of habit. Like, earlier as I finished eating lunch, I thought to myself, “okay, I’m done, time for a cigarette”. I caught myself and laughed at the habit.

I’ve been doing pretty well, though. I’m not cranky. No headaches. I’ve been drinking lots and lots of water. Yesterday I dragged Mike to Target. I bought Breaking Dawn, a couple of composition notebooks, a ginormous case of water, a new air freshener for my car and a pack of gum. I only have enough money now for coffee in the morning, and maybe a meal at Arby’s or Burger King. (I woke up dying for BK. I don’t know why.)

Aside from blogging I’ve only told Mike, Lauren and Sandy. Mike doesn’t think I’ll stick with it. He wanted to lay down a bet but said I could cheat. I made Lauren promise not to tell our parents, because I don’t want anyone making a big deal out of it. Heh. Sandy is quitting tomorrow, because her kids come home tomorrow and it gives her a solid thing to hold onto. I only did it this morning because, knowing myself, I know I’d just procrastinate. Every once in a while I have second thoughts, but it’s nothing I can’t handle.

It’s really not as bad as I’d thought it would be. Not yet, anyway.

My heart, my pain won’t cover up

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If you haven’t read the Twilight series yet, don’t read this. Spoilers ahead!

I just finished Eclipse. I’m a huge Blue October fan, so I instantly saw the connection between “Congratulations” and one of the major plots. In the song, someone is getting married. Her never — did I mention I’m a Blue October fan? — is happy for her but sad because he could never give her his heart. The song basically shows the point of view of the guy at the wedding, watching his best friend get married.

This song makes me want to cry as it is. As soon as I realized what was going on and what inspired it — Stephenie Meyer even mentions how Blue October inspired a lot of this particular book — I really wanted to cry.

I’m not sure how long I’m going to last before I break down and buy the book. I’m trying to save money so Mike and I can go to Indianapolis in October, but Breaking Dawn is screaming my name. Then again, so is three days completely alone with my love.

Dammit. I’m gonna have to wait.

I’m between the moon and where you are

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I went to the bookstore around 5 to get the next Twilight Saga book. I got home, cracked it open and was confused. I read a few more pages and was curious, so I turned the book over and discovered I was supposed to get New Moon, not Eclipse. Thirty-something dollars later, I have both and a couple spoilers.

Like the cashier at the bookstore said, at least I didn’t buy the last one.